Berhitung

Aku satu
Tanpa kamu
Bersamaku

Aku dua
Ketika cinta
Hilang sirna

Aku tiga
Saat ceria
Menjadi duka

Ketika hari-hari
Adalah hitungan jari
Dan kutahu tak ada yang pasti
Disetiap langkah kehidupan ini

Suka dan duka silih berganti
Tapi satu yang selalu kunanti
Secercah sinar mentari
Dipagi nanti

PS: Buat Ibu guru

Bidadari Pergi

Aku duduk diam di sudut ruang
Dengan mata sayu menerawang
Memandang cakrawala berkabut
Seperti hatiku yang kalut

Pelangi yang terbit di langit
Dengan warnanya yang cantik
Seakan berusaha menghiburku
Menghibur hatiku yang biru

Tapi aku tak bisa
Tak bisa lupa tatapan mata
Yang menghantuiku di setiap mimpiku
Yang buatku terjaga di setiap malamku

Mengapa engkau pergi
Dipuncak bahagia cinta
Tatap matamu berkata "ku tak kembali"
Menggurat rasa perih terdalam di dada

Aku masih duduk diam disudut ruang
Dengan mata sayu menerawang
Memandang cakrawala abu
Berharap bidadari turun kebumiku

PS: Buat bidadari
(Thanks to Joko Tarub)

Like Always

She is gone like always
And I am talking to my self now
The echo of my voice is coming back to me
As it remind me that I am alone
Just by my self
No one will respond me back
No one will miss me back
No one will love me back
But
I miss you
I want you
I love you
Like always

Enough

Enough is enough

No more love

No more lust

No more pain

Enough is enough

Must hang on

Must be strong

Must go on

When my lips says enough

My heart betray me

But in time

I must realize

And wake up

Coz enough is enough..

Apakah Arti Puisi

Apakah arti puisi?

Serangkainan kata

Penuh irama

Penghibur indera

Apakah arti puisi?

Ungakapan jiwa

Terkadang rasa benci

Atau bahkan suka

Apakah arti puisi?

Kata bersaut kata

Rasa mengungkap rasa

Tuk ungkapkan gairah jiwa

Apakah arti puisi?

Ketika jiwa yang terluka

Berteriak dalam sepi

Memanggil belahan jiwa

Apakah arti puisi?

Ku tak tahu lagi

Apakah kau peduli

Ketika semua tak berarti lagi

Puisi adalah aku

Puisi adalah kamu

Puisi adalah kita

Puisi adalah cinta

Anin

Anin memandang
Dengan mata penuh bintang
Yang berkerjap-kerjap indah
Menghilangkan semua gundah

Anin tersenyum
Dengan bibir mungil merekah
Seperti bunga nan harum
Diantara bantal merah

Anin berkata
Dengan kata yang tak terlupa
Tersampai dengan mesra
"Anin sayang Mama"

Anin tataplah aku
Anin sentuhlah aku
Anin peluklah aku
Anin ciumlah aku

Cerialah dalam lindungku
Bertumbuhlah dalam asuhku
Menarilah dalam cintaku
Anin, mama sayang sekali kamu

PS: For Sheila Anindya Aji

Kangen

Aku terbaring kaku
Kegelapan memelukku
Mencoba memejamkan mata
Tapi ku tak bisa

Mata itu
Muncul selalu
Setiap aku terpejam
Bayangmu memandangku tajam

Tempatku terbaring
Terasa dingin
Membuatku beku
Menghentikan darahku

Menatap langit-langit
Mengingat setiap detik
Setiap detik bersamamu
Tertanam dalam dibenakku

Aku ingin kulitmu
Aku ingin bibirmu
Aku ingin sentuhmu
Aku ingin kamu

To love you

It broke my heart
Knowing you are hurt
And I am not there
To comfort you

It broke my bone
Knowing you are sad
And I am not there
To ease your pain

It choke my throat
Knowing you cry
And I am not there
To wipe your tears

It is killing me
Knowing you are there
And I am not with you
To love you

Kau

Ketika kita satu
Kurasa detak jantungmu
Darah kita mengalir menyatu
Bahagia selalu bersamamu

Ketika kau di dalamku
Ku rasa kau selalu
Dengan penantian penuh
Melewati malam dengan peluh

Ketika aku adalah kamu
Senandungku mengusikmu
Dan geliatmu kunanti selalu
Tuk bawa cakrawala yang baru

Menatapku adalah merasamu
Mengusapku adalah menyentuhmu
Menciumku adalah membangkitkanmu
Memelukku adalah mengasihimu

Saat ini kita tak menyatu
Tapi kita tetap satu
Darahmu adalah darahku
Hatiku hanya untukmu

Aku kan selalu memelukmu
Aku kan selalu melindungmu
Aku kan selalu mencintamu
Kau anakku


PS: Untuk semua ibu

Detak Denyut

Ketika dia berdetak
Darah di nadi pun menyentak
Menghantarkan gelombang kehidupan
Untukku melangkah kedepan

Ketika dia berdenyut
Hangat di dada pun bergayut
Mencipta hati penuh cinta
Untukku hidup bersamanya

Ketika dia berhenti diam
Nafaspun hilang terpendam
Tatapan mata menghitam kelam
Akupun jatuh ke lubang terdalam

Aku tanpa rasa
Aku tanpa cinta
Aku tanpa jiwa
Aku tanpa nyawa

Dengan mata terbuka
Tergeletak di pinggir selokan
Memandang hampa
Kosong
Hilang
...
..
.

Dan
Aku berdiri disini
Memandang tubuhku terbaring
Sendiri
Mati

PS: For my heart

When I am with you

When I miss you
When I want you close to be with me
To share our feeling
To talk about small thing
And spent our time with smiling

When I am lonely
When I think a moment with you
Only you and me
Laughing and joking
To talk about a small thing

But it just memory
Which I can not forget
I don't have anything
To make it coming back
I hope there is chance
To see you once again
So I can convince you
That we should be together

When I am with you
When I hug you to close to my heart beat
Only the eyes speak
I gently touch your lips
Forever I want you with me

I want you with me
I want you with me

Dia

Matanya indah menggoda
Bulu matanya lentik menarik
Memandang dengan penuh arti
Dia cantik

Senyumnya manis menawan
Tawanya tergerai penuh kehidupan
Bibirnya lincah bercerita
Dia indah

Langkahnya ceria tanpa ragu
Gerak tubuhnya penuh harap
Dengan lambaian gemulainya
Dia mempesona

Aku menggandeng tangannya
Menuntun dia dalam lindunganku
Menjaga dan mencintainya
Dia putriku

Seribu Satu Masa

seribu satu masa
hanya satu yang kurasa
rasa hampa tiada terkira

seribu satu masa
aku tenggelam disana
ditelan lautan derita

seribu satu masa
aku mencoba berjalan
meraih indahnya masa depan

seribu satu masa
aku tahu aku bisa
melewati semua rasa

aku lelaki
terbuat dari besi
tak punya hati


Note: Untuk hati besiku yang hilang

The Corridor

It is like walking in corridor
Yes, dark and long corridor
The corridor which I never know where it will end
And when I will reach the end

My blurry eyes see silhouette of you in the end of corridor
With bright light as its background
As my guidance
To lead me through this long dark corridor

But as I step forward in this corridor
The light in the end of corridor is fading away
The darkness is growing
And it is taking away image of you from my sight

I am still crawling forward in this corridor
With lamp of love in my hand to light my step
For it to lead me to the end of corridor
To you

Di atas bukit itu

Di atas bukit itu
Sinar matahari sore mengusap wajahmu
Angin memainkan gemulai berkas rambutmu
Rerumputan membelai halus tubuhmu
Aroma bunga liar menghiasi wangimu

Tetesan cinta mengalir di dada
Darahpun mendidih oleh bara asmara
Dan panca indra terpusat pada satu rasa
Tak ada jalan untuk kembali

Matamu indah menatap langit
Menghitung formasi awan di sana
Satu...dua...tiga...empat...lima...
Enam....tujuh...delapan....sembilan....sepuluh....
Langitpun terbuka
Turun ke bumi
Surga

For: Aislinn Andrews

I miss you

The night is so quite
Only me and the empty space
And the numb is in my heart
Since you are not here

It is my only guitar
Which make me feel warm
And my finger run through it
As my mind through you

As the night move to dawn
I still can't close my eyes
Cause the empty feeling
Stay here in my lung

I miss you
So much I miss you
I need you by my side
For me to love you
Now and forever

Aku berdiri diam

Aku berdiri diam
Memandang cakrawala
Yang entah mengapa
Seakan mendekat ke dada

Aku berdiri diam
Menarik nafas panjang
Yang entah mengapa
Terasa berat di dada

Aku berdiri diam
Dengan mata berkaca
Yang entah mengapa
Rasa tertusuk di dada

Aku berdiri diam
Menggapai angan disana
Mencoba meraih asa
Tapi harap sudah tak ada

Disini aku terbaring
Sendiri
Sepi
Mati

PS: Untuk semua jiwa yang sepi

A Nice Linux ScreenSaver

Not try yet.

#!/bin/sh

file=phosphor-kernel-src.pl     # script to create

linux_src_dir=/usr/src/linux    # location of kernel src

cat <<> "$file"

#!/usr/bin/perl

srand;

rand(\$.) < line =" \$_)">;

print \$line;

__DATA__

EOF

find -L "$linux_src_dir" -name \*.c >> $file

chmod 555 $file

Maurice Gitau says "$ sold to the dogs...!"

Well the US NFP results were better than expected - 539K jobs lost in April against estimated 600K. Also unemployment rate came in at 8.9% as estimated. Though poor results, but it shows a slow down in job losses meaning the financial crisis is slowing down and may turn neutral by year end. As I had stated below stock markets have rallied on this news – Dow, Nasdaq and S&P 500 all up. Oil is also marginally up as it’s overbought since yesterday and a pullback has to happen fast before it can trade higher. Other commodities are also up and at these levels a pull back on all markets (equities and commodities) is required before another big rally happens. Traditionally May is a selling month in the US, but with the current conditions, I doubt this will happen. As usual, with equities and commodities rallying, the $ does take a hard beating. All major currencies especially Asian and other commodity based like Canadian $ have gained big figures against the $. This is why I was stated yesterday, I’d prefer selling the commodity currencies at these high levels, but a big risk was also in the offing if the $ weakened. So I will have to wait till next week to time the sell entry during the pull back. And the $ beating has been bad and nasty with the $ oversold beyond lows last since on Dec 19 2008, Jan 5 2009 and Mar 19 2009! After markets close today, the charts will indicate the $ is bearish (a sell signal) and it will be sold off even next week whenever it tries a recovery rally. As it stands, in the short term, we are back to expensive Euro, Pound, and Yen (really bad for importers – especially electronics, cars etc and Asian exporters since goods become expensive to sellL). I expect the Ksh to rally against the $ next week as the sell off continues. Your country’s currency should also reflect the same and your stocks should be greener J

Maurice Gitau says

Well the bank stress results were positive so that removes a major worry from the market. However, US markets closed lower due to the risk event of negative stress results released after market close. Asia markets opened mixed on digesting the impact of the results and regained the losses to close positive for the week. However, the gains were minimal considering that US non-farm payroll (NFP) results are released today at 12:30GMT (15:30 here). The NFP indicator tracks the job loss factor and is a major economy trend indicator. If the results show more job losses than estimated (600K lost jobs + unemployment rate greater than 8.9%) then the US $ will gain ground against major currencies as stocks would be sold off with real money going to treasuries (T-Bills and Bonds) to cover from negative exposure to the economic slump risk. This will also hit the Oil price currently at $58 and commodities would fall. 

If the results are better than expected, the reverse happens. This would see oil heading to $60 as commodities and equity stocks rally on improved US econ statistics while the US $ would be sold off against major currencies. Exactly 1hr to go before the big announcement…

Economic Analysys by Maurice Gitau

This analysis is done by Maurice Gitau. I impress with the detail so I decided to put it here. Enjoy.

"On a money note – stock markets have rallied hard today since most economists expect the US bank stress test result to be released today will be positive showing the US 19 largest banks are not in danger of collapse should the econ worsen. Nikkei close 4% up plus a number of Asian markets, Europe markets picked up from where Asia left and have been up most of the day. However, the open in the US markets has steamed down due to increase jobless claims for Q1, analysts had estimated a reduction. Also some tech companies reporting Q1 results today posted losses with SiriusXM (Satellite Radio Company) stocks hitting 10% down! Also microchips firms are down. So Nasdaq and Dow jones losses are currenly stalling the rally up. However, oil is heading up towards $60/barrel…! I think at this level it is totally overbought and a correction back to $50 is on the cards. When oil reverses, most global commodity stocks also follow its trend. So in forex, selling Aussie $, New Zealand $ and Euro against the US $ has the possibility of making some good cash. If the US closes down, then I expect Asia to sell off tomorrow too. And I’m hoping that the bank stress results are positive. Otherwise the selloff will be big on US financial stocks (S&P 500) which automatically will have a knock on effect to the other global markets."

Update Boxee on Apple TV Manually

Just downloaded latest alpha boxee (boxee-0.9.11.5591.dmg).

To to update manually into my Apple TV:

1. Upload the boxee file into ATV with sftp

2. Get the latest script to update:

wget http://atv-xbmc-launcher.googlecode.com/svn/tags/boxee-info/scripts/alpha-0.9.11.5591_update.sh

3. Run this:

sh alpha-0.9.11.5591_update.sh boxee-0.9.11.5591.dmg

4. Reboot:

sudo reboot

Enjoy!